I hate

I ended up losing her. You could see she'd given up today after 11 years. (We had her for 10)

So sad. But it's for the best. But the house seems so fucking empty without a lump to fall over on.

That REALLY sucks. It is never nice having to say goodbye... you wish they could go on for ever.

More (((((Hugs))))) I know this might sound daft, but once you've had time to grieve start thinking about the bounding young puppy that might be coming home with you one day.