I hate

You're in denial. This is the first stage of grief (and breakups), and nothing to be surprised at.

The stages are:

[]Denial
[]Anger
[]Bargaining
[]Depression
[*]Stabbing her in the face hahahaha how do you like me now bitch that will teach you please take me back oh my god what have I done now

Just work through them as nature intended, and you'll be fine.

YouTube- The Five Stages of Death/Grief Ft. a Giraffe (HQ)