Training Advice

After getting some advice from Lee, my gym does not have a trap bar to do t bar deadlifts.

Any one else do anything another way? I was thinking that I could use the large dumbbells instead to get a similar effect? Think me gym has 45kg so that would give me a 90kg deadlift in pretty much the same form as using a t bar?

why T-bar d/lifts?

and how can you use the dumbells, even if you hold the bar the same way, there will be half the weight stuck up under your gooch, won't there? I'm trying to visualize how you are gonna do this and failing