Black Rainbow Project needs your help!

I'm sorry you felt so uncomfortable reading this thread, and despite the fact that I've already explained myself several times throughout the course of it, I'll try again.

You asked if I made any 'effort' to secure funding through 'conventional means'.
As you have failed to specify, I will assume that you mean either good old fashioned 'hard work', or some kind of 'loan/credit' ?
Since moving back to London, I have been working 5 days a week, every single week, with almost no days off, either for holidays or sick days (neither of which I get paid for), for over 4 years straight. The reason for this is to try and fund my passion (private enterprise).
If you were to check my own threads on here, you will see that almost all of them are 'for sale' threads. I've sold or am attempting to sell my bikes, bike parts, music equipment, sewing machines, BRP merchandise...basically anything I can to try and keep money rolling in and allow me to keep moving forward with BRP.
I am paying every month for the biggest place I could (just) afford to rent to allow me to fit a modest sized workshop in it, to avoid having to rent two separate places.
I am paying the day to day expenses we all have.
I am paying towards my children's upbringing every month, I'm paying thousands per year for my eldest sons university accommodation.
I am still paying for the huge debt a former flatmate generated on my old credit card nearly a decade ago by not paying her rent, and me being stupid enough to cover it for her.
Now on top of that I'm trying my hardest to save money wherever possible to cover the cost of new equipment, the cost of CAD design work, custom machining, tools, materials...basically everything necessary to allow me to carry on designing and prototyping the new bags that will allow me to offer something more than the majority of 'me too' products that flood the market daily.
Every pair of socks I own have holes in...it's become a running joke in my flat, but it's true. My work shoes are worn down and worn out. I'm rotating 2 pairs of trousers...because I'm too worried that If I buy a new pair of any of those things, it will take me that much longer to get the next piece of machining done.
I barely eat out, and barely treat myself or those I love, because all my 'effort' is going towards funding BRP.
If you were talking about loans or credit...I am in the absolute lowest credit band. I don't qualify for bank loans, business loans, credit cards, or overdrafts...I've been on the same mobile provider since my first ever phone, because I can't even get a new phone contract.
If this whole 'sob story' is making you feel uncomfortable too, I apologise again...because I'm not trying to write a sob story...it's just the facts. The only means I have to secure funding is through my own hard work, selling my belongings, and relying on the generosity of the kind few who still believe in me.

I've said this several times already...I didn't dream 'Gofundme' up myself to 'solicit' money and 'exploit people's goodwill'...I used the platform, as thousands already have, as a way to try and help me to start BRP again, alongside the work I am already putting in myself daily to do so.
I have also explained several times why I couldn't use Kickstarter 'at this stage'...
Because without a workshop in the first place, and without my sewing machines, materials, custom hardware, and everything else required...I can't work on the prototypes and pre-production versions of the bags and products needed to even be able consider running a kickstarter campaign.

Despite all my fuck ups along the way...and there have been many...I have always tried my hardest to help other people where possible. I have given prizes, supported fundraisers and races, DJ'd at courier parties...all usually at cost to myself...even when I was at my lowest financially and mentally.
The last year has been unbelievably hard, both financially and mentally too.
I would love nothing more than to be able to fund BRP entirely on my own again...or be able to just walk into a bank and walk out with a nice big business loan and credit line...but not all of us have that luxury, because some of us have fucked up too many times in our life.

This is me trying my best to make a success of myself and my business, through both 'conventional' and by the looks of it 'non conventional' means...and if I do, I will be doing everything I can to repay the generosity that many people have shown me.

As I have also said many times...nobody is under any obligation to donate anything.
So if you have a problem with the 'asking', don't listen.
If you feel 'uncomfortable' reading, close the thread and read one you do feel comfortable with.
If BRP doesn't qualify as a 'worthy cause' to you, donate to one that does.

To everyone else...Thank you for allowing me to solicit free money from you by exploiting your goodwill for my own financial gain! xxx