Epic fail

I like fly arounds and bad turbulence. The fact that your life is in someone else hands excites me. I've always wondered what it would feel like if a plane was going down. Sitting there knowing that in a few minutes you are probably going to die and can do nothing to stop it..

To be honest, I was an ace flyer before that, My sister worked for BA and during the 90's I lived in spain for a while, I flew very regularly, and was extremely blase about it.

That flight was 5 hours that are indelibly stamped on the fear circuits in my head, we dived at about 45 degrees to the 90...you could tell that the airsteward/esses were abso-fucking-lutely terrified to,

I left a hand shaped sweat print on my partners leg you could have drwan around with a marker pen. I have flown twice once since that day, and have turned down many opportunities not to fly, It was 10 years ago.

I have to say that moment of calm I think you are hyposthesising about...that woah...here we go, better hold on tight...is sort of there, though the sheer noise and vibration,..which is DEAFENING...and the VIBRATION almost make your teeth lose there fillings...

is sort of hard to ignore, is makes you stress..beyond belief.

I have raced cars a little and that point where you leave the track/road...and you have a bit of slow mo as everything starts to change shape and direction...doesn't really happen...
that time dilation only really happens when your body starts producing huge amounts of adrenalin to cope with the impending physical damage...

planes don't have that, as you cannt really relate to the ground as you can't see it properly, and as a car crash is over in 10 seconds max...

this plane thing was 5 hours...with a crash sequence that lasted maybe 2 minutes ...we divd toward the tarmac for an eternity as it started to shake it's self to pieces and as we pulled out of the dive the end of the plane at the nose was maybe moving up and down by a foot or more...we were sitting over the wengs and those airframes are flexible...

seeing that much movement and feeling it in time with the engine vibrations ...ahh,..I can't even put it to paper...mental..utterty mental.

I'm not trying to lay it on too thick, though yesterday even trying to cram the amount of stress into the lines available ...if I could have just typed AAHHHFUUUUUCCKKKKK...over and over again, it wouldn't even come close ;}