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yesterday I just lost the plot - I made a complete ass of myself - I am so used to turning to her when I am in pain - I had no coping mechanism for when* she* is the pain - so I called her when I shouldn't only for her to put the phone down on me (twice) - I left messages (four) and sent e-mails (six) and got no response - now I have been told in no uncertain words by my AA sponsor that I will definately lose her if I don't give her space - and that I just have to feel the pain and not try and resist it - the problem with being an alcoholic - is that you use alcohol to remove pain - when you can't use alcohol anymore - you don't have anyway to deal with this stuff - thats really why I asked the question - what do non alcoholic people do? - unfortunately casual sex won't help because that has never really done anything for me - nor will moving on to someone new right now - this was 'the *girl' * and that's why its hurts so much - I think I am just going to keep reading this thread - lead as healthy an active life as the pain will allow me - maybe one day I can revist this thread with some good news - also I better come to London - because I owe you lot a few beers - I really am indebted to you - you have helped me alot - people say it time and time again - but there is love here
God bless you x
Buddha