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We released a couple of tracks last week, I know they're not earth shattering but it always seems to be such an anti-climax. It's an attitude I struggle to overcome, yet another symptom of undiagnosed ADHD I reckon.
Completely this. After I released my EP last month I haven't wanted to touch my gear.
It was a pretty traumatic experience making those tracks, but I’m really pleased to have got them across the line. Between my inner critic/undiagnosed ADHD/imposter syndrome/intrusive thoughts/technical issues and looming deadlines at one point I was intent on scrapping everything, selling all the gear and going to a mountain hut somewhere to meditate on the meaningless of existence.
It should be fun but all the fun was completely sucked out of the process somehow. I used to be able to knock a track out in a week, now I'm fucking around with everything for so long, I just kill the vibe.
However playing live is still where it's at for me. Improvised and not giving a fuck.
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Making music is such hard work, eh? I decided a while ago that I CBF to put together a new band making original music, it's just so hard. I'm not a natural bandleader, not when it comes to doing my own stuff anyway, and I don't wanna tell people what to play, but I haven't been able to find like-minded musicians out here. And where do you find the time?? I'm working a six day week over five days so I'm too tired to do anything must of the time.
I've put a little electronic project together in the last twelve months which has scratched the itch but I'm already starting to tire of it and we haven't even played live yet. Not sure if that's just me being self destructive or I'm just bored with it. We released a couple of tracks last week, I know they're not earth shattering but it always seems to be such an anti-climax. It's an attitude I struggle to overcome, yet another symptom of undiagnosed ADHD I reckon.
I'm super self critical which only stops me making stuff. This new project has been an exercise in me getting out of my comfort zone and just making work to get out there. I even put up all my half finished instrumental tracks on SoundCloud as a way of getting comfortable with putting stuff out. Not that anyone cares but it's a way for me to feel okay about letting stuff go.
Anyway, making music is hard and stressful and where do we find the time?? I haven't even got kids, dunno how the fuck you guys do it.