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Fuck Parisiens, bunch of cunts anyway.
That has certainly been my experience with the ex-Parisiens who moved away, or who escaped to Pairs when young and for some reason decided to return when they retired. They are the most miserable mean-spirited ones in the whole village.
I feel like I can really speak French properly when I can respond to their complaining about something with "Listen, you might think you're all that because you're from Paris, but I'm from East London, and I think you'd stop worrying about [insert imaginary problem] if I burned your fucking house down." with the right level of whoever is the French Grant Mitchell.
I don't think you really get a sense of how different the skills of reading, writing and speaking are until you learn another language. Reading, for me at least, seems to take a lot less effort and is relatively easy to pick back up if you take a long break but speaking falls off a cliff if you don't use it regularly.
The confidence or just not thinking too much will only get better if you just continue to speak in French, if someone speaks to you in English just answer in French, no matter how painful it is just plough on. If anyone questions just explain 'j'habite ici maintenant, je dois apprendre la langue'.
I think you might have mentioned that your wife is fluent? So she's probably sorting most stuff out? Don't get me wrong I understand, my Mrs is French so she sorted all the French admin bollocks but I sort out all post office, delivery stuff, I'm taking the kids to school/nursery so talking to the teachers regularly, do all the shopping, basically all the daily admin and we're looking for a gaff to buy so I'm organising the visits with estate agents. I just make my apologies for my shit French at the beginning of the call and crack on.
I bang on loads about doing a course but it really is the way to get over the confidence thing, check out the immigration office (OFII) to see if you qualify for anything, you'd be surprised how much the state offers, even if you have to pay for something they'll at least be the best source of information.
Fuck Parisiens, bunch of cunts anyway.