To reluctantly and with a heavy heart accept that fighting back is the least worst option available, while regretting the need to do so and neither accepting defeat nor saying 'Yay, war, goody!'
Nobody should want to do unpleasant things, he's not saying he wouldn't reluctantly do so if forced, and thankfully he's not at war and neither are you.
To reluctantly and with a heavy heart accept that fighting back is the least worst option available, while regretting the need to do so and neither accepting defeat nor saying 'Yay, war, goody!'