Owning your own home

Vent post, feel free to ignore this - I don't need any validation, just need a place to let all this out.

We put in an offer on a place a month or two back which we didn't expect to be accepted; when it was we were pretty agog so we had to get selling our place really quickly. We hadn't been thinking about moving so I hadn't considered the impact the stamp duty was having on the market and as a result I was more or less totally unprepared for how utterly savage things are at the moment. I mean I know it's the London property market, it's never quite been a walk in the park, but things do feel even more feral atm. And I feel utterly unprepared for it.

We're now on the 'easy' bit - draft contracts have been issued for our buy and our sell, and now it's just getting the lawyers to actually fix up before the 'proper' work of moving starts - but I am already foaming at the mouth stressed and feeling like I don't have the brainspace to do all this AND handover our RTM company to the other directors AND my full time job AND do all the logistics for the move.

I know moving is a bit like snowboarding - you never truly gain control of it, the best you can do is become comfortable with being out of control - but for someone like me who likes routine, and likes consistency, and likes coming home to a nice house rather than a building site (this new place is a state) I'm really feeling out of sorts with the whole thing.

Last time I moved, into my first ever owned flat, everything was exiting and a novelty. Even when I was clearing up rat shit from a flat without a working front door and no elecrics in the middle of February, I had a real sense of excitement and new possibilities. Now I just want it to be over.

I'm sure it'll be worth it but right now I'm in the panic/slog mode and we've not even really got started yet. Big sigh.

Right. Thanks for letting me vent. Back to it.