• It's just impossible to work effectively in this environment. We're lucky to have a large house and space but nothing cuts through like your baby crying. It's literally impossible to ignore.

    I flit between resenting the loud noises that make it hard to do my job, to resenting the fact that I have to do my job so I can't spend more time with Ayla.

    Just a constant feeling of missing out. Finding it tough to compartmentalise.

  • Yeah this! In fact, even my baby name is similar!

    If you'll forgive the rant, it's been a bit of a nightmare since the start for us: not being able to visit my partner in hospital when she was taken in early before the baby was born, then kicked out immediately after a very stressful birth and not allowed to visit for all the time they were kept in afterwards, no homevisits for the first couple of months from any of the usual midwives etc meaning medical issues missed, only one of us allowed into hospital when we've had to dash to A&E in the night etc etc.

    Once back at work, like you say, very hard to work with the constant interruption and crying - has just meant I've not been able to work to even 50% of normal productivity, while also being no help at all with the baby.

    For my partner, loads of the NCT group events have been cancelled, 'sing n sign' cancelled, swimming cancelled, general ability to go anywhere/do anything compromised, one set of grandparents only meeting their granddaughter once so far.

    Has caused a unpleasant breakdown of hitherto rock solid mental health, and we've only been saved by a family member staging an intervention essentially, and bubbling up with us.

    So yeah, I'm all for the bubble.

    Bozza can still do one mind.

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