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I have been over 6.5 years without drinking. I actually found just going without drink and drugs harder than life with. Substances were a medication for me but had pretty awful consequences and side effects for me and the people around me. I needed some support to help develop tools that address the more underlying issues. These include focusing on gratitude, helping other people where I can, meditation, reviewing my days to see what went well and what could be done differently.
I was also at some of the GSIAD and at the birthday party. These days getting fucked up no longer appeals, but I don't feel envious of others doing it. I am fully aware most people have a healthy relationship with drink/drugs and that I do not.
Have sent you a PM.
dancing james
Not entirely sure this is the right place but current state probably helping current confession and in the absence of anywhere better to post this...
I confess that I haven't the healthiest relationship with alcohol.
I've just arrived home,
having had a few pints after an alleycathaving over indulged, there's no excuse.I'm sure others I was out with will be in worse states than me but I'm not happy with my state and that's what matters I suppose.
I've tried tee-totalism in the past and not lasted much past the 9 month mark.
My biggest problem is probably that I fucking love beer!
Nowadays I manage to not get so fucked up that I can't get myself home but tonight, getting myself home was a +/- 10 mile ride in traffic whilst pretty out of it, it doesn't take a brain surgeon to see that I'm on the wrong end of the odds...
In my head I don't need to be completely dry but I wonder if there's any forumengers found themselves in similar positions and have some sage advice to impart to me?