Seems to me like you are second guessing the role and decision of the court. Things like his livliehood, remorse, etc will have come into the verdict and sentencing / compensation amount setting.
Let the justice system do its job and you do your job: being a victim, trying to recover from a traumatic and destructive incident and taking compensation.
If it helps you to process then why not give done of the money to an appropriate charity. Or spoil yourself. Whatever works for you.
Seems to me like you are second guessing the role and decision of the court. Things like his livliehood, remorse, etc will have come into the verdict and sentencing / compensation amount setting.
Let the justice system do its job and you do your job: being a victim, trying to recover from a traumatic and destructive incident and taking compensation.
If it helps you to process then why not give done of the money to an appropriate charity. Or spoil yourself. Whatever works for you.