I may have missed this in the chatter, but why are you putting yourself through this?
The getting over things you're scared of by facing them requires a bit of help from someone who can help you manage the brain response bit.
Why? ... I guess I am worried that if I don't keep trying then I will never do it ever again, it will become an actual THING rather than just some stupid irrational worry that I've developed.
I may have missed this in the chatter, but why are you putting yourself through this?
The getting over things you're scared of by facing them requires a bit of help from someone who can help you manage the brain response bit.