Thanks for the kind words, everyone. What I'm holding on to as a consolation is that in six months I've gone from fuck all running to completing a marathon - and I went from hating running to actually quite enjoying long runs by myself with some music to listen to and thoughts to process. I might actually keep doing those. And I want to make running more fun, less serious business and more enjoying myself. Life's too short for epic suffering and beating myself up about things.
Thanks for the kind words, everyone. What I'm holding on to as a consolation is that in six months I've gone from fuck all running to completing a marathon - and I went from hating running to actually quite enjoying long runs by myself with some music to listen to and thoughts to process. I might actually keep doing those. And I want to make running more fun, less serious business and more enjoying myself. Life's too short for epic suffering and beating myself up about things.